the concept is lost. the ship has been scuttled. petitioning the empty sky for something. some. other. another greater force. this is what this is what this is what life is? confusion sets in. visiting this place too many times before. contemplating the next visit. it'll be tomorrow. it'll be next year. it'll be always. the linear value continues to increase exponentially with no chance of. zero. null. void. incomprehensible to a child. the first born one will never have.

units don't exist anymore. fantasy land people. places. things. so much put into things. it'll be tomorrow soon. everyone will be gone. wishing to have met your grandfather. your grandmother. your next of kin. that's evaporated to a disneyesque proportion. it'll never be tomorrowland. it'll never be happily ever after. settle down. sit still. embrace the darkness. it has been there all along. alone. it's been quiet without you. welcome back.

no dad. no. no it's not like that. no he loves me and i love him. we're going to be together forever. he bought me a ring out of the gum ball machines outside of the jewels. he already treats me better than how you treated mom. fuck you. you wish you understood. i make so much money and i love feeling everyone's eyes on me. no! i never sleep with any of them. i have a boyfriend! he is a:

a. tattoo artist
b. musician (preferably lead guitarist or solo act)
c. dj
d. drug dealer
e. rehab rebound

no! i can't believe you would think i would go out with a guy like that again. he only hit me a few times. i didn't have enough money. never mind. i just wanted to tell you how great i was doing. bartending is great. it's what i always wanted to do. everyone looks at me with blank stares. i get some of the drinks wrong and sometimes have random bloody noses, but i'm good otherwise. i love you too. hey can you float me a couple of bucks? i'm short this month. you know i wouldn't ask unless i had to. yeah. i love you too.

i'm sorry.